06 June, 2017

6.6.17


i feel like a volcano, ready to explode.
i want flames, fire. disaster.

my shadow came back from its last trip
to Hades

full with energy
 black
like its color

how can i calm down


a new explosion
is going to happen
soon

i am ready

calm me down

nobody can

i am nobody



 
my demons are back 

08 December, 2016

withoutmeaning

December 8, 2016

I am rolling a cigarette dedicated to this moment.
my mouth is dry, i am smoking too much lately.

My mind is empty
-No its not. How can it?
Yes it is. And it can be.
Its empty in the sense of  not overthinking.

I am just here.

In front of my virtual world
Under my lamp
with a cigarette
fire and smoke.

words coming out of my hand
clicking buttons
creating sentences

i am writing without a purpose
without a meaning
i am writing to write.

 and

when your mind is empty
is when you are truly alive
aware of the moment

pure

so heavy yet so light word

αγνός.
ζωντανός.
συνειδητός.

when your mind is empty
is when you are truly perceive

sit with your back straight
destroy this fucking cigarette
drink water

breath
focus on the complicated simplicity of your breath

you are alive
you are fucking alive.

06 September, 2016

I called you an...




I called you “my angel” that morning and my mind immediately thought of a dark one.
Was it a dark shadow I saw? Or was it a bright one? The brightest one of all?

Who are you, my angel?
Sometimes I confuse the beats of your heart with mine. Sometimes we breathe with the same rhythms, and some other times we don’t breathe at all.
Do I know you, my angel?
Your eyes. Those eyes have gobbled me. The darkest I have ever seen. My love
We have a communication you know? I can feel your pain, your passion, your anger.
Without a word and without a sight. You are feeling me too, I know… I know.

I am sad; so sad that everything around me seem so beautiful.
A cold morning with birds flying in the after rain sky. How peacefully the fly…
Although I feel the energy of everything; the space, the waves, the air, I have the ability to keep myself locked when I am sad.
There are no tears, no gasps, no bad thoughts.
It‘s just the feeling of pain that burdens me.

My dearest friend, pain…
He is coming when he needs me and I am always waiting with open hands.
Hug me, fill me, make me stronger. Stronger and stronger, go away, stay, go…

Where are you my angel?
Where have you been lost again? Where have you found yourself?
I will always wait you with open hands and an empty mind.
Hug me, fill me, make me weaker. Weaker and weaker..

Where am I my angel? My dearest friend?
Where have I found myself again?  I know, you know?
I am somewhere with the stars. I am swinging in a bubble of air, observing and feeling.
I am the stone. I am the cloud. I am the flower.
And now I became one with my star.

I am so deep inside each moment, yet so absent of everything.

12 May, 2016

End less



Our minds have the same structure as the universe.
Infinite.  Endless.
Multiplied and expanded.


I can stare at the sky for hours
and the stars feel so close to me.

Imagine watching the Sun as a little light
way far away from here.
In another time. Another dimension.

.......................................................................................................

I am huge, a giant.

I can hold our sun in my palm.
So warm, my favorite star.
I can change the time by a blow
I can give birth by a touch.

I am huge, a giant, 
a god.


Now

I can stare at the space for decades

still the stars fell so close to me.




15 January, 2016

ritual



our whole life is a ritual


we wake up everyday in the Temple of the Sun

performers of Life


dancing in the rhythm of Earth's palms

breathing
thinking
living


each of our touch is a form of connection

energies flowing
inside 
and
outside
of you

us

we, 

the performers 
of Life.



15 March, 2015

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Ο καθένας τους ξεχωριστός, να ψάλλει τον δικό του ύμνο

Εμείς να χορεύουμε υπνωτισμένα γύρω απ’ τη φωτιά
μανιωδώς μέσα της
Καιγόμαστε απ το ρυθμό
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